Heartache

I got to spend some very quality time with my family this past weekend. And OMG my newphew is the cutest thing on earth. It's Monday and I am already missing him...Thursday they leave to go back to the UK and I dread just thinking about it...

I will see them again in July. Hubby and I have been designated God parents to the little guy. I can't wait until July....

I didn't think my heart would ache so badly.

This scares me a little...Am I grown up enough to have my own? and why am I so scared to love something so much....

If this is how I feel about my sister's baby, how will I feel about mine?

The hard part is, this little cutie was VERY anticipated. He was her 5th pregnancy (she lost 4 before him) so we all waited for him holding our breath....He is extremely special to all of us...

They're coming into town (from staying at my parent's house for two weeks) tonight, and I might see them tomorrow night...Oh lord, I can't wait....

I am sucha sap.