The Ex....

Do you ever have moments, when you wonder, just how in the hell you ended up knowing someone, say for example, a completely retarded, and inexcusably lame ex-wife? Today, is one of those days. It's been a while since I've had to bitch about her. But today, I just can't take her bullshit anymore. She lies, and she's a really sad excuse of a mother. It makes me so so sad for the little guy..In fact, I feel like crying for him right now. Actually, I really just feel like beating her with my rolling pin, or a shoe. She totally doesn't value his tender young age, and the time that she has with him.

I sometimes wish I could shake her and make her realize just how stupid she is being. I almost want to have a baby just to spite her stupidity and show her how it's really done...Hubby has more than he can handle right now. Man this sucks, she sucks the biggest one of them all.

fresh apples - BLEH

This morning, after rolling out of bed, quite late, I realized that hmm, maybe I've gotten a tad overweight, and yes, maybe I should start south-beaching again...I don't know, I really am a pill when I cut sugar out, and since I don't do artificial sweetner anymore, it's gotten really challenging, minus the migraines...

So I barreled into work, ten minutes early for our regularly scheduled staff meetings, (woo-hoo) I made myself a cappucino, and threw my egg whites in the fridge. An hour later (after being randomly selected to be on a team, and start video editing) I decided I needed some sugar..so..I heated the carefully prepared egg whites, and rinsed off a fresh granny smith apple a co-worker brought from an apple tree gone wild at his house.. Yumm, freshly-home-grown apples. Of course, I am here waiting for my egg whites, dreaming of apple pies, apple bread, apple butter, apple tart..all the wonderful things I could "wow" my co-workers with. After a few bites, I look down, and realize I've chomped into a small brown hole....(the egg whites finish, and the microwave buzzes, as if it's three thousand miles away) I reach for a knife, to a lurking account manager's dismay, I cracked the little sucker in half and learn that yes, it was a worm hole once, and that it mysteriously led to a larger brown hole filled with gunk....DAMNIT..I grab my egg whites, heaving, imagining a worm dancing in my stomach and head back to my cube..DAMNIT again.

Onto lunch. Yay, team outing!!! I love my team, but I don't love how "masculine" they eat...my passing thought about how quickily I've gained 10 lbs, and how mabye I should have salads for the rest of my life, goes to the wind, because they chose to have lunch at "Clarks" DAMNIT. So I order a bleu cheese burger, they order a basket of community fries and ohh, lookee here, our waitress screwed up our order, and gave us a free basket of onion rings.. OMG, is this a joke?!

DAMN DAMN DAMN

So I eat it, most of it...I join in on the grease fest, and then vow to myself that I will run everyday this week, despite the incriminating results my x-ray will produce today during my chiropractic exam...

Damn apples..

5:02:03 *Wildflower*

It just dawned on me that I never wrote about this event.. This took place on Saturday, May 5th 2007

I've never pushed my body more than I did yesterday. It was great, it was humbling, and I hope to do it again, maybe even again next year... Pictures to come after they've been developed...Forgot my camera (doh!)Final time was 5 hours, 2 minutes and 3 seconds. I had hoped to do it in 4 hours. But I am okay with my timing. I worked my ass off.





Above are a few photos at the beginning of my swim. The reason you can't see me is because I was one in about 7 thousand athletes this weekend that participated.

Here's the breakdown according to my own timing: (these are rough estimates, I kept forgetting to turn off my stop watch before I got to the transition area)So these are from memory and not totally accurate.

swim (.93 miles) = 1 hour 5 minutes (this transition was the longest, getting out of a wetsuit and into biking gear is very tedious)

bike (25.2 miles) = 2 hours 20 minutes (had a few close calls, with some downhill high speeds, but made it through without eating gravel)

run (6.2 miles) = 1 hour 10 minutes (not totally sure on this timing, I never knew I could be so tired, I could barely run downhill)

my transitions took me longer than I expected 5 - 10 minutes each or so.. I was all over the place!

It was awesome. I am sore today but soo very humbled. There were handicapped folks with only two arms, no legs, or one leg, people of all types that competed. Overall, I have to say the support of my team is what really got me through it. As much of a pill as I was during the training season, their encouragement helped enormously. The frosting on the cake was seeing my sweet husbands face as I got out of the water trying to take my photo, and finally when I crossed the finish line. My parents were sooo sweet too cheering me on. The enormity of the whole thing was mind blowing, and how much it really makes you value your health and blessings. They all gleamed when I came across the line, and it made me feel so good. But the last person I ran to was Michael. It was great. The feeling I got is inexplicable. (it was the a combination of wanting to laugh, cry, and throwing myself back into the lake to cool off all at the same time)

There were old people (79 I think was the oldest) and young people (12 year old girl) that completed the whole course. And then the bulk of us 25-40 age range.

I will never forget this weekend. How hard I pushed myself, and how much harder I CAN push myself.

There have only been a few personal challenges that I am very proud of, now to add to my list

1. Raising over $3k for The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society
2. Actually being able to classify myself as a "tri-athlete"
3. Climbing Half Dome. (which now seems like such a small feat)

my next venture...to complete a full marathon before 40. I want to get back into weight training and tone up a bit first. (I actually considered going running today...until I realized that I need to let my body catch up with my brain.)But for today.. I think I've earned a day off :)